Writing.
For years I have kept a private journal, in Spanish, English and sometimes French. What follows is a curated selection: 274 entries lightly edited for a reader and stripped of names and things that belong only to the people who lived them. What remains is the shape of a mind trying to organize itself, one day at a time.
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28 entries
28/02/23February 28, 2023
leadershiplearningambition
Proximity and the growth mindset
If I want to be the best, I must surround myself with the best and be willing to be the 'worst' in my group to ensure growth. I must constantly leave my comfort zone in areas that matter. Every time my intuition chooses people, I will open my heart consciously without fearing what my mind thinks will happen. I've realized that university or work intensity isn't what causes burnout; it's the lack of a plan, the lack of defined values, and a lack of direction. With a plan, these commitments are opportunities to practice self-mastery. This life is a game that I must learn to play and enjoy during the process, expressing my original self with those I choose.
27/02/23February 27, 2023
adversitysystemsambition
Juggling and the necessity of error
Juggling commitments (internships, academics, organizations, personal projects) is a fundamental part of the adaptation process. I must not fear making mistakes, because that is exactly what allows me to reflect on how to do better next time. The error is a fundamental part of the system; I must seek it out and increase my exposure to 'positive randomness.' I am juggling in front of friends and family now so that I am ready when I have to perform in front of millions. What often limits me from doing many things at once is my own judgment and the desire to be perfect. Perfection is a byproduct of a system that only rewards those who never fail, but real growth requires the opposite.
27/02/23February 27, 2023
disciplinecalmwork
Mastering the internal critic
There are days when I don't want to do anything I've proposed, but these moments aren't a lack of congruence. They are the exception, not the rule. Failing for a day or two doesn't mean I am a failure or a fraud. It's just my 'internal trainer' disguised as a critic, trying to protect me from perceived danger by viewing everything through a pessimistic lens. This critic is only useful if it pushes me to do what I must despite the resistance. My real power comes from choosing how to approach things and where to focus my attention. By blocking unproductive ideas before they become beliefs, I win. If mastery is reached through repetition, discipline, and consistency, then I will be a master of myself. That makes me unbeatable.
27/02/23February 27, 2023
familymigrationpurpose
Breaking the cycle of scarcity
I've realized that the best way to reduce anxiety about the unknown (especially regarding financial security) is through example. My parents view money through a lens of past scarcity, which keeps them tethered to old business models and fear of risk. I cannot force them to change; change must be generated endogenously. By becoming a high-quality investor and builder, I will break the cycle of anxiety around money and make it work for me. I seek to grow and progress to be better than my predecessors, which is the natural process of evolution. I want to build systems that allow me to be financially independent so I can serve others with sustainable solutions. From the nano to the macro, I am designing a life of impact.
24/02/23February 24, 2023
learningdecisionscalm
The win-win strategy of action
We are biologically programmed to be sensitive to our environment to adapt and survive. However, in a modern context, a change in environment doesn't mean death, though our primitive brain often reacts as if it does. This creates a win-win strategy: because I am not in immediate danger, I can afford to take risks. If I succeed, I win; if I fail, I learn, which is also a win. I've observed how the people around me influence my micro-decisions, like checking social media early in the morning just because someone else is doing it. I must be hyper-aware of these environmental incentives. By calming the physiological response to fear and recognizing that failing is just learning, I can act with the tranquility needed to make productive choices aligned with my long-term dreams.
24/02/23February 24, 2023
decisionscalmleadership
Detachment and the ownership effect
I have been thinking about the 'ownership effect' and loss aversion. We often feel fear of losing something because we have already mentally claimed possession of it, even if that possession is purely subjective or imaginary. This happens in professional ambitions and personal relationships alike. When we imagine a successful outcome, our minds treat it as a current asset, making the possibility of failure feel like a devastating loss. This fear restricts our behavior and makes us less authentic. If I eliminate the perception of ownership over things I haven't yet secured, I eliminate the aversion to loss. This allows me to operate from a place of relaxation and confidence. The trade-off shifts: I can risk everything without 'losing' anything, because I never truly possessed the imaginary outcome to begin with.
23/02/23February 23, 2023
healthdisciplinedecisions
Generating inertia through the infinite game
I am currently focused on optimizing my health as the foundation for everything else. This means maintaining strict discipline with nutrition, sleep, and recovery. I've noticed how easy it is to choose the path of least resistance when faced with discomfort or cognitive dissonance. This is the 'infinite game' I must play. Today, I felt the urge to spend my time on long-term habits like reading and journaling when I actually needed to push through a difficult business case. By identifying that moment and choosing the challenging task, I generated inertia. This principle is extrapolable to everything: running, studying, or high-stakes meetings. Once you move past the initial resistance and build momentum, you become more effective and, eventually, invincible in your pursuits.
22/02/23February 22, 2023
migrationpurposeadversity
The cost of comfort and the drive for change
I remember the psychological cost of migrating to France. It was a period defined by emotional volatility and the pain of leaving everything familiar behind, my family, my university, and my home. At that time, I realized I had a tendency to repress my feelings and isolate myself. I often felt a void that I tried to fill with social interaction, yet I remained accustomed to comfort. I once told my father that I just wanted to earn enough to live comfortably, a reflection of my mother's own search for stability after a life of hardship. But I have realized that my true purpose is to generate significant change. The fear I felt in France eventually became a survival mechanism, helping me stay focused. The objective now is to remember that journey whenever I doubt my path. I must honor the vision of those who came before me, like my mother, who chose a better life through faith and courage, while building my own systems to ensure I don't revert to a life defined by mere comfort.
22/02/23February 22, 2023
disciplinesystemsambition
Building a one-man empire
My true discipline began when I finally embraced solitude in Barcelona. I realized that my previous systems, which had served me in my studies, needed a complete overhaul. For too long, I wasted potential by procrastinating and easing the pressure on myself. Now, I am focused on building systems that work like clockwork, integrating my professional, personal, and spiritual life. If I want to become a high-impact entrepreneur and a world-class policy maker, I must stop the excuses. It is about incremental daily improvements without an expiration date. I am moving away from the old version of myself to build a 'one-man empire.' This requires the courage to postpone immediate rewards for high long-term returns, maintaining integrity and discipline even when no one is watching. The focus must remain entirely on what is under my control.
20/02/23February 20, 2023
disciplineworkcalm
Expanding the zone of influence
Designing one-s day requires recognizing the gap between the rational mind and the emotional self. I have found that starting the day with exercise is the most effective catalyst because the body needs to wake up to match a mind that has been active for hours. Designing the 'start' the night before is what generates the necessary inertia and conditions the mind to respect its own word when the time comes to act. This process requires significant will and consistency until the systems of life function like a clock. I am working on what I call 'Project Obama' (the consistent need to do whatever makes me emotionally uncomfortable to habituate myself to negative emotions). It is about turning the uncomfortable into the comfortable, expanding my zone of influence, and decreasing the ego to let the self reach its maximum potential.
20/02/23February 20, 2023
adversitydecisionsidentity
Mastering the monkey brain
I often carry weight from the past that influences my present and future, but I must realize that I have the power to filter how external inputs affect me. I possess the intrinsic power to decide how my environment influences my psyche. In my personal relationships, I have sometimes let the 'monkey brain' take over (a part of me that fears loss and projects past traumas onto new people, regardless of whether they actually align with my values or professional projects). The goal is to reach an 'Avatar state' of emotional management where the emotional self is aligned with the plans, principles, and values of the rational self. To flow, I must eliminate the distractors and anchors of unproductive emotions. The only real competition is with myself.
19/02/23February 19, 2023
systemsdisciplinedecisions
Internal systems and private policies
The combination of exercise, meditation, cold showers, and high-quality nutrition produces the best possible effects for my body. It reduces my anxiety and strengthens my self-control over environmental triggers that try to sell me 'bad dopamine,' such as fast food or emotional eating. By focusing inward on these systems, I can effectively interrupt old habits and replace them with better ones. It is a journey of creating internal private systems. The sum of these components makes for a high-quality 'policy maker' of one-s own life. I must focus on the most important components, having the courage to ignore the fear of innovation and implementation. This is the foundation for becoming a high-impact builder. By prioritizing my most precious resources in a specific hierarchy (attention, then time, then energy, then money) I can make better decisions even at the micro level.
19/02/23February 19, 2023
ambitionsystemsdiscipline
The macro investor framework
To become the person I envision is not a result of simply wanting it. It is the consequence of a process of design, trial and error, structuring, and the construction of systems that standardize and automate what I consider important. These interrelated systems generate results that improve over time, guided by the forces of evolution and progress. I must enjoy the journey while reflecting on how to implement private solutions to structural problems that seem 'impossible' to change. Such changes only require consistency, congruence, discipline, tenacity, faith, and an awareness of one-s own limits. The more ambitious my goals, the more grateful I must be every day, the more efficient in my micro-execution, and the more patient in the macro. Humility is the cornerstone. Efficiency at the micro level accumulates to generate macro inertia.
19/02/23February 19, 2023
leadershipidentitylearning
Reciprocity in human connection
Seneca once wrote, 'If you want love, love.' This applies to all human interaction. If I want to experience the intellectual and interesting side of people, I must bring out my own intellectual and interesting side first. I have often realized that I adapt too much to others instead of being my genuine self, or I avoid communication because I detest small talk. The solution is to share enough about myself to generate curiosity while maintaining the boundaries I value. If I want to know the most interesting parts of others, I must be interesting to the outside world. By leading with genuine curiosity about others (making them the protagonists of the conversation) I can eliminate social anxiety and understand the human psyche more deeply. Striving to be comfortable with one-s own vulnerability is the ultimate tool for connection.
18/02/23February 18, 2023
disciplinesystemswork
The law of daily inertia
Daily inertia is a real phenomenon. The criteria we set for decision-making at the start of each day dictates the momentum of everything that follows. If I want full internal control over my life, I must be protective of my morning routine. Success is not a sudden event, but the result of inertia repeated over weeks, months, and years. It is about building systems that are solid and sustainable in the long term. Even when I face minor setbacks, like forgetting my laptop or missing a train, I choose not to let my internal state be disturbed. This consistency in small things creates the foundation for large scale achievement.
18/02/23February 18, 2023
learningsystemspurpose
Structural solutions inspired by nature
Exploring the work of Antoni Gaudi reveals a profound philosophy: we must return to nature, the origin, to create innovative solutions. Gaudi was a designer of holistic structural solutions who focused on observation to achieve efficiency and beauty. His architecture reflects his deepest principles and convictions. It makes me realize that the solutions to the problems I observe in the world are often already available in nature, waiting to be observed and adapted. I am interested in how he used his creativity to build elements that were not just aesthetic, but functional reflections of how he understood the world. To build something meaningful, we must align our output with a structural understanding of the systems around us.
18/02/23February 18, 2023
identitypurposeadversity
Choosing empowerment over victimhood
I have recognized a tendency to adopt a victim mentality when faced with emotional longing or rejection. I used to believe that my lack of peace was due to external factors, but I now see it was a lack of order, self-respect, and self-love. I must stop seeking externally what I already possess within my support systems and my own conscious choices. Love and progress are forms of energy. Every time I fulfill a promise to myself, every time I face a fear, and every time I choose to express my emotions outwardly rather than suppressing them, I am practicing a form of self-empowerment. My mission and vision are clear: I pursue excellence daily. I want to empower myself and others through knowledge, experience, and attitude. Finding alignment in the 'accidents' of life is simply a sign that I am on the right path.
17/02/23February 17, 2023
adversitydecisionsentrepreneurship
The utility of pain and perspective
To be an entrepreneur, a policy maker, or a macro investor, I must identify opportunities where the majority sees only problems. This includes managing the part of myself that prejudges and seeks to confirm its own biases. I must constantly ask: What is the best part of this person? What is the utility in this mistake? Changing my questions changes my perspective, and therefore my decisions. This is the Stoic project in its purest form. I also recognize, as Ray Dalio does, that pain is fundamental to learning. Pain is a natural reaction to error, yet it lacks practical sense for pursuing dreams unless it is processed. Sometimes, when it feels like the world is falling apart, things are actually falling into place. Constant reflection and gratitude for these lessons constitute the essence of Amor Fati.
16/02/23February 16, 2023
disciplinesystemscalm
Minimizing emotional arousal in strategy
I need to optimize, or rather minimize, my emotional arousal during key moments where strategic decision-making is fundamental. I often notice a harsh internal critic surfacing when I observe traits in others that do not align with my values. I must accept that people are not machines I can code to act exactly as I wish. They are complex entities. When I possess a negative perception generated by 'System 1' thinking, it becomes a self-confirming prophecy unless my 'System 2' intervenes. Through meditation, I am reducing the response time of my conscious mind. The magic lies in repetition, habits, and consistent, disciplined decisions. My personality is simply the long-term repetition of a pattern of actions. By focusing my attention on the positive, I can transform emotional volatility into a productive force to achieve my goals. Everything is in my mind, and therefore, it is within my control.
16/02/23February 16, 2023
leadershiplearningambition
Designing the self through action
When initiating communication with a stranger, I often feel social anxiety holding me back. To overcome this, I must focus entirely on the other person rather than myself. This outward focus reduces internal anxiety and increases the probability of an enriched interaction. Curiosity is a vital component here, driven by the desire to learn about someone else. I find that using catalysts like the phrases 'remember you could die tomorrow' or '3, 2, 1, NOW' helps generate the necessary inertia. We are prediction machines that tend to self-confirm what we believe we are. Instead, I propose we design who we want to be and work consciously in that direction, taking responsibility for the obstacles. Through learning by doing, we can understand how the world works and apply that knowledge to be of utility to those who have the courage and discipline to build.
"When thou risest unwillingly, let this thought be present, I am rising to the work of a human being."